We spent 4 magical days in sunny California this week and I have mixed feelings, both happy and sad. On one hand I got to see some good friends, got reassured that our friendship knows no geographic boundaries. On the other hand, everything was too raw. With memories picking from every street corner, I didn't want to drive by our old house.
I love my friends and am sure we'll keep in touch, seeing each other here or there; but this time I really said goodbye, mentally collecting the memories and stacking them in my mind-album. I went to my favorite places, buying things, seeing and feeling them again, separating and preparing to cherish those treasured moments I've experienced there.
I discovered that it's hard separating when you don't know what awaits you on the other side, but this time I knew. I have built a new home, new friends, new treasury of favorite places here, in New Jersey and New York.
I have moved on while still loving and appreciating our old friends and experiences.
So now something in me mourns the fact that Orange County became my past, memories that will exist only as memories, moments that will not get experienced again, therefor not reassuring themselves anymore as 'life', as 'present'.
On the way back we saw the movie "Into the Storm" about Winston Churchill. I chose a few quotes of his for you:
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty."
"Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference."
"Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential."
"Difficulties mastered are opportunities won."
Stay healthy and happy,